Attached to Baby

So, DH and I just got a huge surprise...looks like we are expecting #2.  I have taken 3 HPTs and have a dr's appt scheduled for Oct. 31st.  I told the lady I needed to confirm, she asked me if I had taken any HPTs, and when I said yes, one last night and two today...she laughed and said "I think you have confirmed it!"  So, we are still in a state of shock.  We wanted at least two children and were planning to start TTC #2 around the time DD turned one (this coming February).  Well, a couple of weekends ago we were "unsafe" but didn't give much thought to it because the timing seemed totally off (the best I could tell with cycles that haven't yet regulated after having DD).  I have been joking with my DH that he "knocked up wifey again" but seriously never thought it for real.  So, last night I took a test and couldn't believe my eyes.  Guess we are having #2 sooner than we thought.  I am still in disbelief.  I am a bit sad that the real happiness hasn't yet set it, but it is just because I am BEYOND shocked by it.  I know as soon as it really sinks in that I will be just thrilled, but right now I am waiting for that to happen.  I worry about the money and everything else.  Also, I am still nursing DD (8months on Wed.) and hope to be able to continue until at least one year.  Any mommas out there have any words of wisdom and/or advice about adjusting to the unexpected, yet happy news....continuing to BF while pregnant...and anything else that you think would be helpful for me right now!!!

Wow, congratulations! What a great surprise! :)

Hopefully some mamas will chime in about nursing while pregnant, I haven't gotten that opportunity yet.

I have seen that book referenced quite a few places, including my "The Womanly Art of Breastfeeding" put out by LLL.  I think I am going to purchase it.  One thing I notice though is that everywhere I have looked so far is talking about nursing your toddler while you are pregnant.  Well, I'm not there yet.  I am nursing an 8 month old while pregnant and am really hoping to find somewhere to read about that or someone to talk to about it.  Today I am out of the shocked phase and now I am scared to death.  I am worried about continuing to BF my DD.  I am worried about being able mentally, emotionally and physically to take care of two small children.  My DD is the light of my life and I am so scared that I will not have enough time for her as the pregnancy progresses and the new one arrives.  For those mommas with multiple children....Is this all normal feelings you experienced, too?  I mean, I was a little scared before DD arrived and once she was in my arms all those fears went out the window and it has been great.  But this time, the level of scared I feel is much more than with DD.  I wonder will everything just fall into place this time like it did with her?  I want so bad for all of these other feelings to pass so that I can get to the excited stage.  It isn't like this is bad news for us, just a little sooner than we planned and I guess that is why I am thrown for such a loop.  I am happy about adding to our family, but that is just overshadowed by the fear and everything else right now.  Hopefully it won't last long.  If not before, hopefully when I have that first sonogram everything else will subside and let the happiness take over.

I certainly need to check into a LLL group, too.  Working full time it is hard because most of them meet during the day.  Maybe I will just have to see if I can find one that meets in the evening that is close to work and I could just go straight there from work and then home.  I could certainly use a little extra support from other mothers right now.  DH is doing great and all, but there are some things only another mom can understand : )